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Name: Kabrina
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State: California
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Sunday, September 14, 2008

Do You Really See Me?

It is my desire to share my heart with others and one way to do that is through my writting. You may like it and you may not but know that for me it is one way that I can put my thoughts onto paper. Here is a poem that I have written but please if it offends you that is not my intention.

Do you really see me?
This place is HIS and HIS alone.
This is the place where they learn of their heavenly home.
Some are unhappy and that's a fact.
With Jesus we are taking it back.

Do you really see me?
I am here with minimum resistance.
I follow HIM without assistance.
Full of Joy, but loosing faith.
I know HE's here for my sake.

Do you really see me?

I ask for help and you wonder why.
I try so hard that I could cry.
I have sought counsel from friends.
For with you, is an issue and I will not bend.

Do you really see me?

You say you really care.
but because of you I am loosing hair.
The rubber met the road you see.
This is not the end of HIM, nor me.

Do you really see me?

I am here because HE said.
Although I feel to you I am dead.
I love this place that much is true.
I give what I believe is due.

Do you really see me?

I have learned many lessons here.
It seems as if the most recent is fear.
The help I sought has let me down.
But that will never remove my Heavenly Crown.

Do you really see me?

I live my life with serving only ONE master.
because I know that two would lead to disaster.
I am here I want you to know.
I will not leave unless HE says, "GO!"

Do you really see me?
This is the last time I will ask.
This is not a very hard task.
I am not alone when I ask this question.
I am not just making a suggestion.

Do you really see me?
The last thing I want to say to you is this.
Go ahead you can put me on the list.
Because I AM a human being.
and, I AM worth seeing.


Let me just say.  I AM DONE!


Friday, September 12, 2008

Choices

We all have choices that we need to make. Some are easy like picking out what to wear in the morning. What to eat for meals. What kind of deodorant to wear. But there are other choice that we need to make morally. Some choice that we may or may not feel the remnants of for hours, days, weeks, months, years, forever. 
I have made many of those decisions in my life. This is one of the times that I made a decision that I am not happy with the outcome of. The hard thing is that it is not a regret just something that I will think about as a mistake. 
Just a few prayer requests some silly, some not so but all are real prayer requests: 1. I need a man (who loves Jesus 1st right Josephine?).  2. I need a life. 3. I need a place that I actually call home because home really is where the heart is and let me just say it is not where I currently live. and 4. I have signed up to join a community group at Vintage Faith Church in Santa Cruz and am excited yet a little nervous because it means that I will have to meet people without having anyone by my side. However, I am looking forward to it.

That's all! 


Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Brain surgery update

This is again copied from my myspace blog so if you read that you do not need to read this.

 

Update on my pops

Picture it will ya.  Wake up from a very restless night of sleep head to the hospital at 8:00am to drop off the parents.  Head back to the hotel to pick up brother, sister-in-law, niece, and nephew (after getting lost for an hour in Palo Alto) then again heading back to the hospital to see dad off to have brain surgery.

Go to get lunch because he finally goes in at 12:30pm (the surgery was scheduled at 10:50am).  Then back to the hospital at 3:30pm (we were told that his surgery would take 3 - 5 hours). When we got back we asked the person running the waiting room desk thingy, "is there any news on Martin Hall?"  To which she said "Yes! Someone from the tissue bank would like to speak with you right away because they need something from you."  Then we said, "what is it?"  She said, "I am not sure she just said that she needs something from you."  Well, let me take this side note to say if you are volunteering somewhere like a surgical waiting room of a neurological wing DO NOT TELL THEM THIS INFORMATION AND NOT KNOW WHY!!!!  I am not sure if that is something that they normally do but I will say that it is a bit rediculous.  So I said, "Could you call her or something!"  I was a little angry because not only did I hear it but my mother heard it and I was more worried about how she would take it than anything else.  Turns out they wanted to see if we would sign to donate the brain tissue, blood, urine, and whatever else he did not need that they were already removing."  To which we said, "Yeah of course."  As we were taking a deep sigh of relief. 

The lady from the tissue bank went into see how much more time he was going to be in surgery then came out and told us about 3 more hours.  So we went to the cafeteria (believe it or not it was much more comfortable than the waiting room) till about 6:30pm.  Then went back to the waiting room and there was no volunteers anymore so we used the phone and called they told us 2 more hours.  So we just waited........and waited........and waited.......and waited......Did I mention we waited.  So we called yet again at about 7:50ish.  They said between 1.5 - 2 more hours.

Then my brother, sister-in-law, niece, and nephew went to get us some food.  Then around 8:15 the doctor came out (FINALLY!!!!!).  He told us that my dad was fine and he was going to be ok.  The reason that it took so long was that his blood vessels that they were going to put together were too thin and brittle and that they could not do the surgery as planned but they (being the best surgens in the US) had a plan B.  So plan B actually worked and he was being closed up.  They had to warm his body temp up, because they had to drop it drastically to do the surgery, and then they would wake him up, do some neurological tests, and send him to ICU they will take about 30 min to get him situated and then we could go see him.  Now the ICU at stanford only allows 2 people in at a time and only visiting for 30 min.  So we finally were able to see him at about 10:30pm. 

Today (day after surgery) he was able to eat lunch and dinner, moved to a room not in ICU (less restrictions), then walked around the wing.  I have some pics and things all the way through the proccedure and I will get them online ASAP.  Hope all is well with you all and I pray that no one has to deal with this again.

If you have a questions please ask.  I would be happy to answer them. Also keep praying for him because he is not yet out of the woods.


Friday, January 25, 2008

Brain Sugery

If you have myspace I just copied the same blog from there so yeah you don't need to read twice unless you really want to.

 

I was sitting here thinking, "I wonder if I could be all deep and stuff".  Then I decided I was not going to.  This is a prayer request for all of you who pray.  My dad is having brain surgery on Monday January 28, 2008. 

My dad found out this last summer (07) that he had something wrong with his brain and after many months of doctors visits and being poked and proded and photographed and exrayed and tubed and inked and whatever else they did to him.  They found that he has a blood vessel that is 100% blocked in his brain.  Some of you may know that my sister who would be 35 years old if she had made it died of something similar to this. (Side note: So we found it, it runs in my dad's family.)  The amazing thing is this was something that my dad has dealt with for at least 15 years if not longer.  He had something go wrong a while back and it has caused him severe headaches but the doctors could not figure it out.  Anyway, all that said.

He is having what is like a brain bypass.  For those of you who don't know (I were one) a brain bypass is just like a heart bypass.  They need to take a blood vessel from one part of my dad's brain and insert it into another part of his brain.  This is a pretty crazy surgery.  My dad is a great man and I know that he does and will have lots to offer for many others.

So yeah if you could send up a little one for him that would be great.  I will update when he is released from the hospital.  Thanks.


Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Hmmmmm

So yeah I have not updated in like forever.  I can not really do a whole lot of updating but I will say.  Busy, newness, loss of friends, missing others, making new ones, lots of other stuff that is all I can say at the moment.  Talk to you all soon.

KB



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